In the past, crossing the border and leaving Estonia behind brought a wave of relief. I don’t know why it’s different this time, but I just can’t seem to shake off the feeling of home or breathe in the fresh air of this new chapter. Maybe it’s because before, we were escaping the harsh winters. Before, it was for our health. Before, we always knew we’d return and continue building our lives. Back then, we had the feeling that Estonia was still where we belonged, and we made plans accordingly. But this time, everything is different. The reasons for leaving are not the same. First, there’s the whole motocross track…