I need to write this out of me. I could have never imagined finding myself in a situation like this. I didn’t know that emotional heartbreak could be this physically excruciating. The longing is unbearable. The feeling of love is overwhelming. I don’t know what I would give to undo what has happened. Today has been unbearably hard. A complete collapse. I cannot accept that you are no longer here. I love you. I miss you. I keep your hoodie with me because it still carries your scent. The first three days after it happened were a complete blur. I remember nothing. Shock. Confusion. Why? Self-blame. A few days later,…